Unveiling Thoughts & Life

Being the eldest daughter in our family is difficult. My parents taught me how to be a responsible daughter, student, and a sister. Ever since when I was a kid, I am always seen as a loving, sweet, caring, and independent girl. As growing up, I was forced to think for myself, but little did they know that I was doing this already when I was little. One of the most crushing features of growing up is the weight of expectations. Being the eldest daughter is hard because no matter what I achieved, it was never enough. It's hard because there must always be a new standard to meet. 

Some people say self-doubt can kill your confidence, and I have proven that already. I always have self-doubts and don't believe in my own abilities. But this school year, I will improve my confidence. Although I know that it will be challenging, I will still help myself to boost my confidence. I will learn from my mistakes and use this to do better next time, because I know that failure is a normal part of the learning process and will not and never see this as a setback. While building this confidence of mine, I will not forget to enjoy this junior high school journey. Despite all the pressures, expectations, and struggles that I will be going through, I will still embrace myself, the little me. 

 Behind the heavy weight of expectations, I will promise myself to do my best. I will achieve my dreams and goals in life, and make my parents proud. I will promise myself that one day, I will help people to feel better. Giving up will never be my choice. I know I will have a struggle, but that doesn't mean that I will give up already. I will be responsible in my studies, I will let my tears come out of my eyes but I will always have faith to God that I can. Someday, I will be proud to the younger me and tell her that "finally, you did it".